February 2012
This is't easy.
Trying to hide my true emotions, trying to act like I’m okay.
I shouldn’t have to act like this in front of my boyfriend, but I just don’t want to have to talk and explain why I’m feeling how I’m feeling. I don’t want to have to re-explain everything from last night that is still bothering me. It’s the reason as to why I was zoning out and thinking all...
Kay.
Some days I feel okay. Some days I feel happy. Some days I feel not so great.
But days like today, I feel like nothing, I feel like ignoring the world, though that isn’t exactly good for me to do. Okay… -.-
I don't know.
I’m not in the mood for much today, I just want to go back to sleep.
The one person I want to talk to is sleeping, and my mind is just everywhere.
It’s going to suck trying to survive school today. hopefully today goes fast…
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My mind only consists of one thing right now...
Sleep…
I feel like death. -.-
It's only for the better...
I have a tendency to think about certain things, only causing me to break down, when I break down I feel that the only thing that will make me better is physical pain, more specifically the pain of a knife going into my skin, cutting. As much as my boyfriend wanted me to talk to him about things instead of hurting myself, I couldn’t, I had trouble, I kept everything bottled up, only making...
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And no one realizes how bad it actually is.
Fuck you all...
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I'm just getting so sick of everything...
Something happens between 2 people and someone else gets involved, and it ends blowing up way more than it should.
I’m not sticking up for anyone in general, I’m just getting sick of this always happening.
It constantly happens, all the god damn time.
Good to know that my boyfriend is pretending to love me, but I’m pretty god damn sure he isn’t.
There is a reason why I...
You know...
I love how males believe that they are better than females at everything.
How about no, you’re not, that’s just how it is, deal with it.
I'm not just going to stop hoping.
Why? Because when I hope for something, it means it’s something that I actually care about, or at least try to care about. And I’m not a bitch like that, I’m not just going to stop caring. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother, but I bother because I care, I care about you, and basically everything about you, in what you do, how you act, and just because I love you.
No matter...
I love you, I really do.
That’s not going to change.
And right now, I only hate myself.
That moment when something said in the movie Prom...
When Donna thought her boyfriend was asleep she told him that she thought he was sleeping, and his response was “No I’m not, I’m just resting my eyes.” I started laughing and my boyfriend looked at me like I was an idiot, and I told him what I was laughing about and he made a face.
It only reminded me of him, because he has said that to me before XD
I love him :3
Funny how things work out.
You really do believe that I planned to stay home? You really do believe that I planned to wake up with a mind-splitting migraine and feeling like total shit? I understand you hate me and all, but for fuck sakes I did nothing wrong, I’m sorry if feeling like total shit and missing school is a bad thing, but my bad for not knowing this. It’s people like you that cause me to do what I...
I have never loved somebody as much as I love you.
And I truly want it to stay this way.
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